This is today’s reflection in my little Advent book, and I think it is beyond amazing and fitting for this time in my life.
Scripture: [Jesus] said to the one who was paralyzed, “I say to you, rise, pick up your stretcher, and go home.” (Lk 5:24)
The teacher asked her second grade class what each student wanted to be when he or she grew up. “A football player,” “a doctor,” “a policeman,” “a fireman,” “an astronaut,” “a teacher,” came the answers from all over the classroom.
Every second grader responded, except Timmy. Timmy just sat quietly at his place. So his teacher said to him, “Timmy, what do you want to be when you grow up?”
“Possible,” Timmy replied.
“Possible?” asked the confused teacher.
“Possible,” Timmy said.
“Timmy, what do you mean, you want to be ‘possible’?”
“Well,” Timmy explained, “my mom is always telling me that I’m impossible. So when I get big, I want to be possible.”
There is more reflection, but I decided to write my own. I was actually looking through my notes on facebook, and I came across one that I had written in the hospital. It was called something like, “Things You Can do that Chay Can’t” and I listed some things that I found it hard to do because of my physical paralysis.
The funny thing about being paralyzed is that suddenly I realized all the things that I couldn’t do, and I dreamt about the things that I would do if I could only have the chance to lift my leg again, to hold something tightly, to be able to type and to write again, to get around without any help and to stand and cook and play and dance.
As the ordinary things became impossible, I began to see the many, extraordinary possibilities for my life.
Certain parts of teaching are quite paralyzing.. and every day it feels as though I am relearning how to walk. I’m learning how to lead during school instead of follow, even though I know how a class should go, I’ve never had to do it quite like this, just like picking up my feet with broken nerves.
The end of the reflection in the book goes like this: “Jesus calls us all to pick up our ‘mats’ and ‘rise and walk’ .. and be ‘possible’.
In learning this myself, especially in this time of Advent and Christmas Program rehearsal madness.. I hope that I can teach my kids by my life that getting up and doing something important, something extraordinary when you don’t think you can do it .. well, it’s possible—more than possible, even!
It’s expected of us. And when you expect the extraordinary of yourself and listen to God’s call, anything is truly possible.
I know this; it’s brought me here to this amazing school and it’s given me a reason to wake up every day and believe in being possible.